With the kind of person I am, I don't know what a plan means to outside world. As I always was on a back foot in case of planning and scheduling or perhaps you can say in a better sense something like prioritizing things, there is no wonder my life was full of adjustments and compromises.
When I go back in my childhood, I found myself surrounded with lots of expectations, much of it dealt with behavior and academics. I did well but when I see it from here it looks I lost my childhood doing nothing, probably I should not think like that. But the reason I think like this is because I was always in a comfortable zone with my family and friends around. I never thought even a single second that I am going to be alone one day like everyone. The word "alone" means feeling yourself in a different frequency which is easy to tune with others but still you will feel its different as there is no echo. In most of childhood years, I was with my little brother. He is nice to me always and I love him as he is very near to my heart and soul. You see, he is none other than my brother. We almost share same kind of voice but now he is taller than me. He has a taste and he is all set for a good carrier. He also sounds as if he has a plan for his life.
Being an elder brother is a huge responsibility because I was his natural trainer in almost every aspect of life. I was his close friend, but as we mature things change and he has a new friend circle and so as I. My friendship to him has taken a shape of responsibility. I care about him but the age in which he is now demands freedom. I abide by this. In terms of a son and as a elder brother I feel things went as they should have gone and I am happy for it. It did not require much of the planning and scheduling in terms of life. Things planned themselves.
Now coming to center of the topic, when I started living alone, I noticed a lot about my mind and my behavior which I found was not very different from other people except I was different for a many people, something like a "crazy mind" or a "lost and confused electron with high energy". But things started changing as I worked in a MNC. The friends of office were very different from the friends of school and colleges. May be because office was not meant for friendship, it was meant for team-ship. It took me some time to understand this difference. I realized it soon and tried to analyze it deeply as I was living alone and I had thus plentiful of time to understand people and analyze about their behavior and their mind uniqueness. Friends from school and colleges still mingle as they were before but all of them have changed or adjusted in the bigger school or college which we see outside our usual college/school. They all are good and living their life untouched. I don't know why I use "untouched", probably I can not touch them inside their mind.:) No matter how, if i ever planned for something, I only panned my studies for exams in schools and colleges and it was natural. I think everyone was forced to plan during those days. I don't count it as planning.
Anyways, planning and scheduling is not my job till now. Seniors used to plan about the job and the work used to come as scheduled. I was getting my job as assigned and I was doing it. I was happy. Slowly, I saw people jumping one company to another and from top it looked like an unstable bunch of electrons trying to search stability. Suddenly, I felt as if I am also not in a stable condition and that triggered an alarm. Now, I have realized the may I did not plan for this.
Making a perfect plan is not easy and experience comes handy in this case. Working out on that plan needs proper scheduling. Their are examples available for the different patterns for different kinds of planning. But they lead to same results in almost every case. Using right pattern is key as there are so many solutions for a particular situation. This is the same rule which applies in designing a application in software industry. The architect is most reputed guy in software industry because he plans the actual thing that has to be worked out. To reach a role of architect, if you see, it takes lot of effort and in actual terms he is the most intelligent guy around. He knows the base and limitations very well of everything involved.
Being an architect of your own self is the biggest task of one's life. Planning and scheduling may be one of the vital part of this role. Sticking to that plan is a manager's role. Managing time and experience is another important thing. This role says that their is no limit and drives us to reach our best potential for the plan that the architect made. Life is nothing but a set of patterns already waiting for you. You just need to get with the right skills there. Everyone goes through these patterns in their life for sure but they use/follow/ship through it in a different way.
Today, the whole world seems to have a plan for them except me. If I have one, I know deep inside me that I am not going to follow it because I don't have the reasons. People may say these reasons as motivation but I think there is always a reason behind existence of everything whether it is a motivation or desire. It is not true that I don't have desires, I have, but, I don't have reasons. If I have one now, that is not for me, although I am going to be involved.
I feel deep inside that if I have a reason to do something, I will do it. If that reason affects me only I will do it for sure. If that affects my family I have to do it. If that affect whole world except me, I will try to do it. If that affects nobody, I will only dream about it and will leave it as it is. I may sound wrong here in my approach. Now let's reverse it out and try to correct it.If the reason affects nobody, it should not be dream t at all. It's waste of my time and dreams. If it affects whole world in a good sense, I will do it for sure. If it affects my family, i will do it. If it affects me only, I will neglect it. Thus, there is no question of "I" here. There is nothing which can affect me except my meanness. Thus, whatever I have to plan there should be something for somebody else also. This makes things simple to plan and schedule.
To be more clear and precise in my planning, the people I know closely are my family and rest who are unknown are world for me. There is no existence of me. I am just a thought. Now when I plan for something, I need a real reason behind it, which should have something for others always. That makes sense. Now when I schedule the time for this plan, I have to seek others co operation. All my work should have a single goal "Growth". Isn't it?
Although, I am not clear about what "growth" will actually mean for this world but I will try to find it. One thing for sure is that, this growth should increase humanity and co operation. How I am going to contribute is the way I have to find? This is what I need to plan and work it out. The next thing what will be scale of my contribution. If I say a very large scale then, I will have to leave a lot of things behind and say good bye to many of my personal feeling which affects directly me. Now, as I have declared myself nothing but a thought, so there is no impact for me. I will try to maximize this scale of my impact.
As now it is clear what would be the scale and direction (which are too big for a thought like me). I have to start planning which no doubt is the most admirable job in this universe. the scheduling is the next big thing and needs commitment to deliver it on time. But as I said if you have a strong reason you will do it, so am I. But, one thing that I have to always realize and keep in mind is that I am just a thought. :) .
The one character which always gets into my mind was "Joker's" character in the movie called Dark Knight. They showed him like a perfect planner, although he was for wrong reasons but I find it very good example here to illustrate my point.
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